Prince Charming
With every “Once upon a time” my ears would encounter as a little girl could instantly notify me that the story being told consisted of beautiful young girls who fell lin a deep love with their Prince Charmings. Such stories that made the achievement of “Love” seem as simple as cracking a smile. What many authors of these stories forget to include is all the main points in a relationship, things such as: Trust, Betrayal, Loss, Disappointment. Things that can lead to a heart being broken, one person suffering with the pain that can tear them up inside. They forget to to mention how we all live in the real world, meaning that not everybody always get a “Happily Ever After.”
Weird how life works. We go around meeting thousands and hundreds of people to it only taking a single person to make an enormous difference in your life. This exact thing happened to me in the year of 2008, when I met the one guy who would change me in such a drastic way. It was a bright, hot August morning and I found myself on the way to a new school with new people. I didn’t know what to expect or what would happen, the only thing I did know was that there was this one guy I had my eyes on, and I was determined to find him. To my satisfaction, my search didn’t take long. Right there in our introduction to Band 101 was the guy who for the next two years would be my main obsession. Now let me clear up that I wasn’t a stalker of any kind, but keeping tabs and being attentive of that person who you find yourself attracted to was quite important. To my dismay, things didn’t go very well at first. I was trying to get the attention of someone who could care less about me. My hopes were beginning to diminish until September 2, 2009, that’s when everything changed.
I won’t deny that I had never cared for any other guy in my life before, but I will admit that I had not cared for another guy as much as I did for this one. None of them could and still can’t compare to him. He made our time together the best of my life so far. I was happier than I had ever been in any other moment of my fourteen years of life. It seemed that the sun shined brighter, the sky was bluer, and the world was so much more wonderful. Silly what a single human being could cause, huh?
With the two and a half months that followed, I found myself smiling a little more, laughing a little louder, and always having in mind that I had such an amazing boyfriend. And oh, was he amazing alright with his sweet words that gave me premature ventricularcontractions and the respect he gave me when he cared about what I had to say. He practically made me feel like Cinderella finally having found her perfect Prince Charimg. Such things that could really have a girl thinking he was the most perfect guy alive. You think a girl would have known any better? Well, they always did say that love could weaken even the strongest of them all.
From many past experiences, both personal and from others, I know that the fist thing popping into your mind after reading all that is “This young lady obviously doesn’t know what she’s talking about..” but you see that would be your first error. Why? Well, I’ll tell you why, because the main mistakes many adults and older “mature” people make is that they think they know who has felt love and who hasn’t. Just because you are older and maybe wiser does not automatically mean that you have experienced love. Not just that but they tend to measure love with time. The older you are, the better suited you are to find love. But don’t you see how that is just not the case? Love is an emotion felt with the heart, not something that you are handed over when you’ve reached a certain age. It can neither be limited nor defined by any other thing in this world, and though time may have it affect in it some how, only the other person your hearts connected with has the power to either strengthen or weaken it. But Love will always be there with no time defining it or limiting it.
So as you can infer, From the time period of September 2, 2009 to March 1, 2011, I can assure you that I experienced more love than any married couple. Love is the only term fair enough to to give meaning to the emotion I felt for him. Each day he would tell me I was beautiful and each day he’d make me believe it. He saw past nice hair and pretty smile to the deep thoughts and emotions that ran through me. Not only this but he also taught me so many more things, Patience was one of the main ones. He started that off with simple pecks on the lips that had so much more meaning than any hot make out between Romeo and Juliet. He also helped me see things in a whole new point of view, how there was more to a person than what we inferred. I would find myself waking up each morning and thinking about what I could do differently that would make me into a better person, one such person that would be worthy of him.
Like every relationship this world has seen, people always find themselves fighting with the one person they should never even have an argument with. We also found ourselves changing in ways that the other never even expects. In my case, that one person who had made such a drastic impact on me, made a comeback with an even bigger one. He went from being that person who brightened my days to making me feel like I didn’t even exist. He made me doubt all that I had become and all of what I had learned. How could someone so important to you, can make you feel love and then hate all of a sudden? It takes a great deal to go from one to another, having that one person be the reason why you cry yourself to sleep instead of smiling for. Events that can forever mark you and keep you in the dark for as to why something so amazing can end up so messed up. Questions that never really seem to be completely answered because you can’t really know what it is that runs through the other person’s mind. Why they chose what they did. So far the only conclusion I have for him is that he got bored of me. He wanted change, he loved it, craved it, even welcomed it. When he was merely living for the moment, I was living to see tomorrow.
My mother always used to tell me that the first time you fall in love, it can change your life forever. It doesn’t matter what you do, that feeling will always be there and that sometimes you try your hardest but in the end things don’t work out the way you hope they will. And I can very much assure you my mother was right because to this day I see him and I smile, remembering our late night talks and how the warmth of his hand felt in mine. I still have him in my thoughts, wishing him well with everything he does in life and even though he didn’t stay for that “Happily Ever After”, he made me feel what I had never felt before and what I’ll always remember. Because “It’s better to have loved and lost than to never have felt anything at all.”
